My Fairy Godmother

So this weekend has been great. I mean really great. Extremely busy but that's what I love about New York. This place is vibrant and alive and makes me feel the same way.

Today I went to church and as always it was awesome. And after church I had a really interesting conversation with my girlfriends.

Interrupt this blog to say how I'm really excited for Denzel Washington and Viola Davis for both winning Tony's for their roles in August Wilson's "Fences". Congratulations to them..that really made me happy...watched it with a whole lot of black actors and artists in the city. Can't wait til it's my turn.

But back to the convo...

So leaving church today, after the message was talking what you want and seeing what it is that you want out of life. And being on top of a mountain so that you can see further. Basically "The higher you go, the more you can see. The more you can see, the more you can have." So I thought to apply this to every aspect of my life and I asked the question (because I'm a hopeless romantic) what do you see your husband doing right now? The answers are as follows:

Me: I see him leaving church and he decided to take his mom, grandma and niece out to lunch.

Friend #1: I see him getting back into town from a business trip.

Friend #2: I see him traveling, somewhere in the world learning languages.

And after answering this question I could clearly see what each of us wanted in a mate. Me, someone with a close family and him treating the women in his life like the queens that they are. Friend #1 wants someone stable, steady, ready for a mate that has built a career for himself. Friend #2 wants someone who has seen or is seeing the world. Culturally aware and the ability to travel.

I was inspired by this question because I have a vivid imagination and could actually see my husband picking up his niece and watching his grandma and mom look at him with pride (I know...so cheesy but that's what I saw). This clear image was so real that I have to try it again. I even saw my friends images and couldn't wait to meet their husbands either. I'm going to start making these visualizations everyday (about different things) about the different things that I want to be a part of my life. Like really make them real. If only for a moment. I mean what can it hurt.

I remember getting in trouble in school (well not trouble trouble but my teacher would get onto me) for reading during class (my book would be under my desk while she was talking...that's why I can't really tell time that great because during that lesson I was reading "The Baby Sitters Club when she asked me about a quarter til...I couldn't answer her then and I probably couldn't answer her now)

Anyway...I was saying that I would get in trouble for reading and for daydreaming in class. But I remember that I would get so wrapped up in another world and in my thoughts that I was no longer in the class. I was no longer Lenore sitting in my desk but Lenore walking the beach or talking to someone or having her first kiss. Why is it so easy to do as children and we make it so hard to do as adults? Well...back to my imaginative roots...back to creating my fantasy world which people have tried to make me forget over the past couple of years. Saying things like..."that only happens in your dreams", "this is real life", "that doesn't exist" "that's a fairytale" etc.

I think I'd rather live in the world I've created in my head than in this dark reality. No thanks...in my reality people don't shoot the people that they love.

No I'm not delusional and won't walk around sprinkling fairy dust on people, but I will take the bits and pieces of my childhood story books back and not some much want the Cinderella life...because I'm not waiting on my prince charming to rescue me from my dreary life. I would much rather have the prince come running up (with at least 3 carats) after I've slayed my dragon, redecorated my 3 castles in LA, NY and a remote island somewhere all while wearing Manolo Blahniks...and we ride off into the sunset to be with our 2 maybe 3 kids. Him driving of course...or steering the horse and carriage if I continue with the theme.

All I'm saying is that I can appreciate Halle Berry's career...aside from the marriage part. She is taking the time to raise her child, do her charity work and live a normal, healthy life AFTER she has done the movies, won her Oscar and still has her residual Revlon commercial ads running all while having one of the sickest bodies in the game. That to me is a fairy tale. My dream come true...I'd just like a prince to come home to at night.

Well...moral of the story is...Just like it says on my facebook.

I believe in fairy tales. Dreams do come true.

I HAVE to share this!!

You know how you get so excited about something but no one is around or picks up the phone to talk? Well that happened to me tonight. When I left the theater. I went to the (sold out) packed SVA Theater to see a new film starring my southern friend Stephen Tyrone Williams and left the theater beaming! Like not just smiley girl that I usually am but BEAMING.

I may be bias, I may be a little shallow but I can tell when I'm being lied to. And for the p

ast 103 minutes I was not! Children of God was the T.R.U.T.H. The film was beautiful. I mean beautifully done.

Stephen Tyrone Williams was the truth. His body is the truth. I'm just saying...and not that I'm lusting after him but I can respect the effort this man puts in the gym. It was beautiful to watch.

Basic info about the film, and no, I am not a film critic nor am I professionally trained to critique movies but this is my opinion. Don't like it don't read it. Basic info is below. I stole it

from his website. www.stephentyrone.com

New York City Premiere of Kareem Mortimer's CHILDREN OF GOD in association with Southern Fried Filmworks

Run time: 103 min. | Bahamas | color | Film Format: Digital Video

Filmed in the breathtaking Bahamian islands, Kareem Mortimer’s debut feature is a

groundbreaking look at the lives of three people trying to survive in a homophobic and violently repressive islan

d nation. Jonny is a young white gay artist who has recently lost his inspiration, putting his art school scholarship in jeopardy. In an attempt to clear his head, he

travels to the serene island of Eleuthera, where he meets sexy black musician Romeo. Under the ever-watchful eyes of the judgmental island-dwellers,

Jonny and Romeo embark on a steamy secret love affair that puts both their lives in danger. Meanwhile, Lena, a jaded

preacher’s wife, initiates an anti-gay crusade on the island when she finds out her own husband has been sleeping around with men. As

Jonny and Romeo fall deeper in love, Lena’s quest to rid the island of gays picks up steam and, together, the three stories barrel towards a dramatic

conclusion.

So...basically...this film is set in the Bahamas (and the director gave a pre-speech about how

his countrymen still have some issues and are not perfect) and as I'm sure everyone knows being homosexual (esp a man) is not an accepted way of life. And this film explored that very well. It was captivating, moving, and I was inspired.

Williams has engaging from his first scene on camera...it's like you couldn't take your eyes of him. His eyes were so big and bright and sincere...it's like I wanted to know his story. Of

course I was so connected to his co-star and felt so deeply for him that at one point, yeah I almost yelled at Stephen. But honestly, the beaches were beautiful. The acting was good. It was a treat to enjoy. This film deals with the church, homosexuality, and acceptance of individuals for who they are. What was also inspiring is that

race wasn't played a huge role in the film. Although one character was black and the other white (although he did say he wasn't white...but he was pasty) it never was really brought up. It was like they saw thru to the heart of the other person.

Stephen was funny, he was

energetic and he was real. His emotions were raw and uncensored (even with his mama...and I know a few island mamas and I'm not how sure they would have responded to him talking to them the way he did!) But I was entertained. And it also gave me butterflies thinking maybe just maybe Channing

and I can do a film and color won't matter...I digress.

I left the theater inspired. People ask me all the time why you movie to NYC instead of

LA, you wanna do film that's where you need to be. I'm inspired because I"m meeting people EVERYDAY that are doing what I love and making it IN NEW YORK. Stephen went to the Bahamas to shoot this film. Do you know how incredible that is? He was snorkeling ON CAMERA! And where does he live? NEW YORK! Just goes to show you what is for you is for you...and you can be anywhere your heart desires.

Oh but then when I was leaving I was so happy I wasn't really paying that much attention and I wore these huge heels...with kind of a weird platform and I jumped over a puddle of water and almost broke my daggum ankle! So ridiculous...tryna be cute. I might have screamed I can't remember. Ankle still hurt now.

For real, this film got me so excited I don't want to do anything else. I'm supposed to be cleaning my house and prepping for tomorrow's dinner and I have a meeting with an agent tomorrow...so that should be cool.

But anyway, the film did remind me of the first time I went to the Bahamas. So it was a little sad to watch on a personal note.

To the first Bahamian I know and love. Rest in Peace sister. You are in my heart forever.

Joy Alexandria Owens

Day of Productivity

So...for the past couple of years I've been talking about the things I've wanted...things I've wanted to do, etc. 2009 was the year that those things actually started HAPPENING.


"Be ye doers..."

And today was a day full of just that...I've been saying I wanted a website...know exactly what I want on it, etc and have just been putting it off for YEARS. I've been saying I want to blog...but I've been putting it off for YEARS. I've been saying I've wanted to move to NYC or LA but I was putting it off for YEARS...I think I've made my point.

"Do it now" has got to be my new mantra. If I want it now, I gotta do it now. Case closed.

So...please keep me focused and not get weary in well doing...haha

Moved to NY..check
Started my website..check (got my domain and hosting just a few minutes ago)
Started a blog..check

What else do I want? Oh yeah...a tv show. Thanks. Feature films. Thanks. National commercials. Thanks. A network of friends and comrades in NY...cuz I'm still new and it's weird not knowing many people.

So....some posts will be longer than others...some I could probably just post on twitter and be done with it (www.twitter.com/coerlessly) but bear with me. I'm figuring this out just like you.

This is my first blog post...kinda surreal...I've had a few of those moments this year. I expect SO MANY MORE.

I have "The Secret" I built the vision board, I'm taking the classes...I'm making the steps, I'm enjoying my journey. I enjoy being me. I enjoy this process. I wonder what it's gonna look like in the end.

Happy Tuesday!