Thursday, December 16, 2010

Oh What A Night!

So this isn't gonna be a very long post (cuz it's super late and I"m super tired) BUT tonight was an amazing night. Well today was just an all around great day in NYC!

Couple of super fantastic things happened.

1. I was at an intimate kinda-like listening party for Tank tonight (who is breathlessly amazing. Like all around talented. Funny, handsome, clever, piano-playing-chocolateness) I was sooooo impressed.
2. KimberlyNichole was the MC, whom I love and see randomly all throughout the city. (It's so cool when I see people I know at events. It makes me feel good about myself)
3. I saw Keshawn at the same event. (refer to #2)
4. Then I went to BBKings for the first time ever with a huge group of friends...kinda randomly to see The Roots perform. (and they're simply amazing).
5. They brought out John Legend.
6. Estelle.
7. The Cast of Fela.
8. Patti Labelle (I almost peed myself)
9. It was free (I did have to stand in the cold for like 20 hours to get in tho-pure exaggeration but you get my drift)
10. I met the most fantastic director whom I have been twitter stalking for some time now-Matthew A. Cherry. And when I say stalking I mean legit stalking. Like know pretty much everything he tweets. I even facebook friended him cuz I love his work. And I don't know, I've just always felt like I was going to work with him at some point (call me crazy but a few months ago I even tweeted that to him)

IDK, I'm actually kind of proud of myself for speaking to him in the first place cuz I usually don't just randomly talk to people that I don't know/stalk and I did tonight so that was stepping outta my comfort zone a little (lot). I think the thing that inspires me most about him (and take this with a grain of salt cuz I don't even know this man) is that he's from Chicago and he's living the dream. He's making it happen for himself...and I've seen like all his projects...I probably scared him off telling him his life story tonight but...it just inspires me to chase my dreams just a little bit harder and a little bit faster...the same that he is.

So off my industry crush...I feel like my tv show is coming sooner than later...fingers crossed prayers prayed (it's gonna happen) meeting the right people, saying the right stuff, and being true to who I am so it has to happen SOON! I believe! More on that later tho.

That's all for now...all that musical talent tonight has left me speechless. I experience people living their dreams tonight and for that I'm forever grateful.

As the clock approaches 4 am...it's time to shut my eyes...my dreams will be there in the morning :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I can't shake this feelin'

But it feels good :)

I was talking to him today after I left shooting a really minor scene, kinda as a favor/paying it forward/networking and he asked me how I felt. And honestly there's no other feeling like the one I get when I'm on set doing what I love. You always hear people talking about when you do what you love it never feels like work...well I've found mine. It's all I want to do. When I'm performing it feels like I'm fulfilling my purpose on this planet...doing what I was called to do. I've never felt like that with anything else...and I don't feel that way about anything else...and I'm not gonna keep searching either...I've found it and I've gotta hold onto it.

It makes me happy...it's my happy place. And for right now that's all I'm focusing on.

What else?

Um..ordered new head shots today and FINALLY ordered some postcards (even though I've been saying that I was gonna order some for like the last past YEAR) procrastination has GOT TO GO!! And that's why I just went ahead and got them. And I got a really great deal on them too.

Thanksgiving has come and gone and I'm completely thankful...my life is a miracle and where I am in life and with myself and mentally, physically, and emotionally is simply a blessing from above.

I ran into an old friend when I went home...and I couldn't get past the fact that he was still talking about the same stuff we were talking about 2 years ago. I was a little surprised...it got to the point that I could kinda tell what he was going to say next because he had said the same thing 2 years ago. I honestly feel a little bad for him because the person he met two years ago and the person I am today are 2 completely different people. Some for good and some for bad...but different...changed...progressing. Not still complaining about the same situation and stuff that I was complaining and talking about 2 years ago. I think people get comfortable and think they have no way out...when that just can't be true. There's always another option.

Maybe I'm just preaching but...bust a move. You don't like something, change it. You gonna complain about it and not do anything then go talk to somebody else. That's kinda rude and I'd never say that to a friend but I have an amazing ability to stop listening, pick a point on your face and just stare at it.

That's so mean.

So my best friend went to India today...I hope she has an amazing time...kinda weird for her to go so far away with no one but the Lord with her but it's a great experience.

OH!! So I'm (we) are writing a new web-series which...honestly is hilarious (at least I think so) I never considered myself a writer and the whole process is really interesting. I'll keep ya posted on it. It should be a lot of fun and a lot of hard work but that's what I appreciate. This is what I want so I have to work hard for it. And I'm ready.

OMG!!! So this post is taking forever! But I took a long break why? Cuz I'm no longer sleeping on the floor :) I mean technically I was never actually sleeping on the floor! But NOW I'm really not...kind of a new experience (even though I've been sleeping on beds since forever) but I think it was so easy for me to take things for granted...and clearly I don't do that anymore! I'm truly grateful...life for real. For the little things. I think that's what this experience is teaching me. Be grateful, be humble, cuz everything is a blessing. For some reason I pray really hard before each meal...I'd never done that before...until it was a point I didn't really know what I was gonna eat and lived on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and water to get by. So now when I bless my food I'm truly thankful...for the money to buy the food and for what I'm about to eat. Weird but like I said...you learn in the valley and that's where I am...but I have a thankful heart and I know I'll be at my mountain top soon...with a tv show :)