I can't shake this feelin'

But it feels good :)

I was talking to him today after I left shooting a really minor scene, kinda as a favor/paying it forward/networking and he asked me how I felt. And honestly there's no other feeling like the one I get when I'm on set doing what I love. You always hear people talking about when you do what you love it never feels like work...well I've found mine. It's all I want to do. When I'm performing it feels like I'm fulfilling my purpose on this planet...doing what I was called to do. I've never felt like that with anything else...and I don't feel that way about anything else...and I'm not gonna keep searching either...I've found it and I've gotta hold onto it.

It makes me happy...it's my happy place. And for right now that's all I'm focusing on.

What else?

Um..ordered new head shots today and FINALLY ordered some postcards (even though I've been saying that I was gonna order some for like the last past YEAR) procrastination has GOT TO GO!! And that's why I just went ahead and got them. And I got a really great deal on them too.

Thanksgiving has come and gone and I'm completely thankful...my life is a miracle and where I am in life and with myself and mentally, physically, and emotionally is simply a blessing from above.

I ran into an old friend when I went home...and I couldn't get past the fact that he was still talking about the same stuff we were talking about 2 years ago. I was a little surprised...it got to the point that I could kinda tell what he was going to say next because he had said the same thing 2 years ago. I honestly feel a little bad for him because the person he met two years ago and the person I am today are 2 completely different people. Some for good and some for bad...but different...changed...progressing. Not still complaining about the same situation and stuff that I was complaining and talking about 2 years ago. I think people get comfortable and think they have no way out...when that just can't be true. There's always another option.

Maybe I'm just preaching but...bust a move. You don't like something, change it. You gonna complain about it and not do anything then go talk to somebody else. That's kinda rude and I'd never say that to a friend but I have an amazing ability to stop listening, pick a point on your face and just stare at it.

That's so mean.

So my best friend went to India today...I hope she has an amazing time...kinda weird for her to go so far away with no one but the Lord with her but it's a great experience.

OH!! So I'm (we) are writing a new web-series which...honestly is hilarious (at least I think so) I never considered myself a writer and the whole process is really interesting. I'll keep ya posted on it. It should be a lot of fun and a lot of hard work but that's what I appreciate. This is what I want so I have to work hard for it. And I'm ready.

OMG!!! So this post is taking forever! But I took a long break why? Cuz I'm no longer sleeping on the floor :) I mean technically I was never actually sleeping on the floor! But NOW I'm really not...kind of a new experience (even though I've been sleeping on beds since forever) but I think it was so easy for me to take things for granted...and clearly I don't do that anymore! I'm truly grateful...life for real. For the little things. I think that's what this experience is teaching me. Be grateful, be humble, cuz everything is a blessing. For some reason I pray really hard before each meal...I'd never done that before...until it was a point I didn't really know what I was gonna eat and lived on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and water to get by. So now when I bless my food I'm truly thankful...for the money to buy the food and for what I'm about to eat. Weird but like I said...you learn in the valley and that's where I am...but I have a thankful heart and I know I'll be at my mountain top soon...with a tv show :)