I NEED to do a post

I just haven't found the time or the words. Sorry for abandoning you guys for awhile. So hear are the recent happenings.

1. I have new (well one new and the other is old) church friends...makes it so much more fun to go to church when you know you're meeting people (aside, of course from Jesus) there.

2. Pet peeve....an actor/model that will remain nameless called me the other day COMPLAINING that he just got booked on a commercial simply from his head shot and resume. For real...dude was moaning an groaning about the pay (a couple hundred at that) for a gig. I got SO heated! Nothing burns my biscuits more than ungratefulness (side-note: don't think I"m just talking about him behind his back...when he started complaining I almost grew fangs and started to hiss) My question is how are you gonna get mad that you a. didn't even have to do anything and they just liked you from ur picture
b. are working in the field in this economy
c. SOMEBODY IS PAYING YOU AND THEY DON'T HAVE TO
It was too much for me to handle. I will forever stay grateful...cuz I know what it's like to NOT have...

3. Off the soap box...geez these things make me preachy. The weather here SUCKS right now. Like for real...it's so cold and slimy outside...it makes me wanna curl up and hibernate ALL WINTER LONG. I really don't enjoy leaving my house. Period. But. I try to keep telling myself all the other actresses feel the exact same way and they're not gonna show up to the audition so I'm gonna get it by default...that may be a mean way to think about it. But that's the only thing that sometimes gets me moving.

4. Acting...let's see. I've had some pretty good auditions and have two callbacks this week. That's pretty cool. Let you guys know if (when) I book. Still in rehearsal for a new show that goes up in May...did I tell ya'll that? If not, I am...I play the Bishop's youngest daughter (such a stretch I know) Booked a student film...buuutt with the crappy weather Idk when we're gonna shoot/get together cuz it's in Long Island. I mean who goes out there? Also, ha...this is funny...I got to play the role of my favorite artist about a week ago. I won't say who (cuz I really don't look like her) BUT I will say she has blonde hair and for that day so did I. Um..also I had to shoot outside in the YUCKY weather and let's just say...the diva side of her came out too.

5 (a) Things that I saw: Uh..this chick at Target on Sunday (the Lord's day no less) tried to buy $200 worth of gift cards, with get this, FAKE MONEY! Like bad fake money too. Couldn't even pass. It ripped in the cashier's hand. The cashier got so tickled that the girl was trying to pull one over on her she went screaming to all her coworkers to look at the money and feel it. Even the other customers got to feel it! I wanted to cuz I'd never seen counterfeit money before. But I mean really, the girl was saying she just went to the bank and they gave her fake money. IT LOOKED LIKE MONOPOLY MONEY! She even had one of those bank white envelopes that you get money back from! It was so sad/funny at the same time.

5 (b) Sigh...so did I mention the weather is AWFUL? Cuz it is...I honestly don't remember the last time I went out, just to go out. Entirely too cold. But I think I've mentioned that. But what reminded me was that I was sitting next to this lady on the train and (everyone knows I'm nosy) she was sending an email (to her bestie-I assume) and she was telling her how she was just gonna take a trip to some island off the coast of Spain I'd never heard of this weekend. She's canceling class (she's a professor) and couldn't turn down a trip cuz some friends are renting a villa. She's just really going cuz she's tired of wearing gray and black and it looking so dreary outside. I was like R U SERIOUS! That's the life I'm talking about! I think the more you know...the bigger you dream. I would love to be able to do that in the middle of February, just take off with my friends to some exotic, off the beaten path because I need a change of scenery or because I don't like the weather where ever I am. It'll happen.

6. I submitted a lot to a some peeps...I'm interning now...trying to learn about the business in as many facets as I possibly can.

7. Basically, since the last time we spoke I'm working on me. Trying to be the best me that I can possibly be. And I love Oprah. Completely random but I do...and she inspires me. When she interviews me one day I'm gonna tell her I talk about her in my blog in 2011. Speaking of Tyler Perry...idk why everyone is hating on him SOOO badly. I don't get it and I never will. I don't remember Martin or any of the other MILLIONS of men that have dressed up in women's clothes for a ROLE getting so much flack for it. Perhaps it's because he's making so much money...idk. Keep working TP and somebody give him my number (don't think I'm kidding cuz I'm not).

I was just about to close out and do the benediction...but I remembered. I wasn't trying to glorify that lady's life that's traipsing across Spain this weekend...cuz further in her email (I'm such a busy-body) she (and I would like to point out that this lady was about 40 years old-maybe not but she had old hands) went on to tell her bestie how Paul (her ex-boo) is now dating some chick that's Pamela's friend. And she said, "I'm not totally freaking out but it does bother me a bit" UGH!

(ps most of the things in parenthesis I made up or better still...used my imagination)

REALLY LADY! I'ma need you to gone head and get over Paul...what does that tell us young women? That the same issues we have with the guys now are THE SAME issues we're gonna have well in to our late 50s? I can't. I simply can't be bothered. Go on your trip and get as far away from Paul as you possibly can. That really irked me.

Anywho...this post is waaaaay too long and you've probably stopped reading by now...but these are my rambles and this is my life...please don't judge :) If you do...I don't care. Just keep it to yourself.

But I'm healing...I could tell that the other day. My heart doesn't hurt as bad as yesterday...it's been a slow process but I can feel myself coming out on the other side.

Oh, I have a pretty big callback tomorrow...say a little prayer for me that I #BOOKIT

Gracias